MK-8D

2008-12-11T17:35:00.002+08:00

eeeeeeeeeunice is feeling very drowsy now, -_-
i dont want to fall sick. ):

anyway, whats with blogging about my retarded-ness? Am i that funny? rahhhh ><

yoga having concert next yr, AND HE'S COMING TO SINGAPOREEEEE! :D
iwanttowatch!!! my birthday coming hahaha. :D

okay lah, i guess im bored, and i TOTALLY wasted today by napping for 2hrs and attempted to bei pu. -_-

2008-12-10T23:01:00.003+08:00

WILDWILDWET IS FUN :P

(wonderful day with my pretty darlings, and im damn tired now, like i've exercised for the whole day. -.-)
we just loved the family ride so much, dont we? :D

我舍不得你。

2008-12-09T22:06:00.003+08:00

海角七号 is really nice! :D
wonder how could missing someone be so sweet and 凄美.

(一)
1945年12月25日。
友子，太陽已經完全沒入了海面
我真的已經完全看不見台灣島了
你還站在那裡等我嗎？
友子
請原諒我這個懦弱的男人
從來不敢承認我們兩人的相愛
我甚至已經忘記
我是如何迷上那個不照規定理髮
而惹得我大發雷霆的女孩了
友子
你固執不講理、愛玩愛流行
我卻如此受不住的迷戀你
只是好不容易你畢業了
我們卻戰敗了
我是戰敗國的子民
貴族的驕傲瞬間墮落為犯人的枷
我只是個窮教師
為何要揹負一個民族的罪
時代的宿命是時代的罪過
我只是個窮教師
我愛你，卻必須放棄你
1945年12月25日。
友子、太陽がすっかり海に沈んだ。これで、本当に台湾島が見えなくなってしまった。
君はまだあそこに立っているのかい？

友子、
許しておくれ、この臆病な僕を。
二人のことを決して認めなかった僕を。
どんなふうに、君に惹かれるんだったっけ。
君は髪型の規則も破るし、よく僕を怒らせる子だったね。

友子。
君は意地張りで、新しい物好きで、でも、どうしょうもないぐらい君に恋をしてしまった。
だけど、君がやっと卒業した時、僕たちは、戦争に敗れた。
僕は敗戦国の国民だ。
貴族のように傲慢だった僕たちは、一瞬にして、罪人のくび枷を科せられた。
貧しい一教師の僕が、どうして民族の罪を背負えよう？
時代の宿命は時代の罪。
そして、僕は貧しい教師に過ぎない。
君を愛していても、諦めなければならなかった。

(二)

第三天。
該怎麼克制自己不去想你
你是南方艷陽下成長的學生
我是從飄雪的北方渡洋過海的老師
我們是這麼的不同
為何卻會如此的相愛
我懷念艷陽…我懷念熱風…
我猶有記憶你被紅蟻惹毛的樣子
我知道我不該嘲笑你
但你踩著紅蟻的樣子真美
像踩著一種奇幻的舞步
憤怒、強烈又帶著輕挑的嬉笑…
友子，我就是那時愛上你的…

三日目。
どうして君のことを思わないでいられよう。
君は南国の眩しい太陽の下で育った学生。
僕は雪の舞う北から海を渡ってきた教師。
僕らはこんなにも違うのに、何故こうも惹かれあうのか？
あの眩しい太陽が懐かしい。
暑い風が懐かしい。
まだ覚えているよ。
君が赤蟻に腹を立てる様子。
笑っちゃいけないって分かってた。
でも、赤蟻を踏む様子がとても綺麗で、
不思議なステップを踏みながら、踊っているようで、
怒った身振り、激しく軽やかな笑い声。
友子。
その時、僕は恋に落ちたんだ。

(三)

多希望這時有暴風
把我淹沒在這台灣與日本間的海域
這樣我就不必為了我的懦弱負責

友子
才幾天的航行
海風所帶來的哭聲已讓我蒼老許多
我不願離開甲板，也不願睡覺
我心裡已經做好盤算
一旦讓我著陸
我將一輩子不願再看見大海
海風啊，為何總是帶來哭聲呢？
愛人哭、嫁人哭、生孩子哭
想著你未來可能的幸福我總是會哭
只是我的淚水
總是在湧出前就被海風吹乾
湧不出淚水的哭泣，讓我更蒼老了
可惡的風
可惡的月光
可惡的海

十二月的海總是帶著憤怒
我承受著恥辱和悔恨的臭味
陪同不安靜地晃盪
不明白我到底是歸鄉
還是離鄉！

強風が吹いて、
台湾と日本の間の海に、
僕を沈めてくれれば良いのに
そうすれば、
臆病な自分を持て余さずに済むのに

友子、たっだ数日の航海で
僕はすっかり老け込んでしまった
潮風がつれてくる泣き声を聞いて
甲板から離れたくない
寝たくもない
僕の心は決まった
陸に着いたら
一生、海を見ないおこう
潮風よ
なぜ、泣き声をつれてやって来る
人を愛して泣く
嫁いで泣く
子供を生んで泣く
君の幸せな未来図を想像して
涙が出そうになる
でも、僕の涙は潮風に吹かれて
あふれる前に乾いてしまう
涙を出さずに泣いて
僕は、また老け込んだ
憎らしい風
憎らしい月の光
憎らしい海

12月の海はどこか怒っている
恥辱と悔恨に耐え
さわがしい揺れを伴いながら
僕が向かっているのは故郷なのか
それとも、故郷を後にしているのか

(四)

傍晚，已經進入了日本海
白天我頭痛欲裂
可恨的濃霧
阻擋了我一整個白天的視線
而現在的星光真美
記得你才是中學一年級小女生時
就膽敢以天狗食月的農村傳說
來挑戰我月蝕的天文理論嗎？
再說一件不怕你挑戰的理論
你知道我們現在所看到的星光
是自幾億光年遠的星球上
所發射過來的嗎？
哇，幾億光年發射出來的光
我們現在才看到
幾億光年的台灣島和日本島
又是什麼樣子呢？
山還是山，海還是海
卻不見了人
我想再多看幾眼星空
在這什麼都善變的人世間裡
我想看一下永恆
遇見了要往台灣避冬的烏魚群
我把對你的相思寄放在其中的一隻
希望你的漁人父親可以捕獲
友子，儘管他的氣味辛酸
你也一定要嚐一口
你會明白…
我不是拋棄你，我是捨不得你
我在眾人熟睡的甲板上反覆低喃
我不是拋棄你，我是捨不得你

夕方、日本海に出た。
昼間は頭が割れそうに痛い。
今日は濃い霧がたちこめ、昼の間、僕の視界を遮った。
でも、今は星がとても綺麗だ。
覚えてる？
君はまだ中学一年生だった頃、
天狗が月を食う農村の伝説を引っ張り出して、月食の天文理論に挑戦したね。
君に教えておきたい理論がもう一つある。
君は、今見ている星の光が、数億光年の彼方にある星から放たれてるって知ってるかい？
わぁ～、
数億光年前に放たれた光が、今僕たちの目に届いているんだ。
数億年前、台湾と日本は一体どんな様子だったろう。
山は山、
海は海。
でも、そこには誰もいない。
僕は星空が見たくなった。
虚ろやすいこの世で、永遠が見たくなったんだ。

台湾で冬を越すライギョの群れを見たよ。
僕はこの思いを一匹に託そう。
漁師をしている君の父親が、捕まえてくれることを願って。
友子。悲しい味がしても食べておくれ。
君には分かるはず。
君を捨てたのではなく、泣く泣く手放したということを。
皆が寝ている甲板で、低く何度も繰り返す。
捨てたのではなく、泣く泣く手放したんだと。

(五)

天亮了，但又有何關係
反正日光總是帶來濃霧
黎明前的一段恍惚
我見到了日後的你韶華已逝
日後的我髮禿眼垂
晨霧如飄雪，覆蓋了我額上的皺紋
驕陽如烈焰，焚枯了你秀髮的烏黑
你我心中最後一點餘熱完全凋零
友子…
請原諒我這身無用的軀體

夜が明けた。
でも、僕には関係ない。
どっちみち、太陽は濃い霧を連れてくるだけだ。
夜明け前の恍惚の時、年老いた君の優美な姿を見たよ。
僕は髪が薄くなり、目も垂れていた。
朝の霧が舞う雪のように僕の額の皺を覆い、激しい太陽が君の黒髪を焼き尽くした。
僕らの胸の中の最後の余熱は、完全に冷め切った。
友子、無能な僕を許しておくれ。

(六)

海上氣溫16度
風速12節、水深97米
已經看見了幾隻海鳥
預計明天入夜前我們即將登陸
友子…
我把我在台灣的相簿都留給你
就寄放在你母親那兒
但我偷了其中一張
是你在海邊玩水的那張
照片裡的海沒風也沒雨
照片裡的你，笑得就像在天堂
不管你的未來將屬於誰
誰都配不上你
原本以為我能將美好回憶妥善打包
到頭來卻發現我能攜走的只有虛無
我真的很想妳！

啊，彩虹！
但願這彩虹的兩端
足以跨過海洋，連結我和妳

あ、虹だ。
虹の両端が海を越え、
僕と君を、結びつけてくれますように。

(七)

友子，我已經平安著陸
七天的航行
我終於踩上我戰後殘破的土地
可是我卻開始思念海洋
這海洋為何總是站在
希望和滅絕的兩個極端
這是我的最後一封信
待會我就會把信寄出去
這容不下愛情的海洋
至少還容得下相思吧！
友子，我的相思你一定要收到
這樣你才會原諒我一點點
我想我會把你放在我心裡一輩子
就算娶妻、生子
在人生重要的轉折點上
一定會浮現…
你提著笨重的行李逃家
在遣返的人潮中，你孤單地站著
你戴著那頂…
存了好久的錢才買來的白色針織帽
是為了讓我能在人群中發現你吧！
我看見了…我看見了…
你安靜不動地站著
舊地址，海角七號…海角？
你像七月的烈日
讓我不敢再多看你一眼
你站得如此安靜
我刻意冰涼的心，卻又頓時燃起
我傷心，又不敢讓遺憾流露
我心裡嘀咕，嘴巴卻一聲不吭
我知道，思念這庸俗的字眼
將如陽光下的黑影
我逃他追…我追他逃…
一輩子

我會假裝你忘了我
假裝你將你我的過往
像候鳥一般從記憶中遷徙
假裝你已走過寒冬迎接春天
我會假裝…
一直到自以為一切都是真的！
然後…
祝你一生永遠幸福！

友子、無事に上陸したよ
七日間の航海で、
戦後の荒廃した土地に,ようやくたてたのに、海が懐かしんだ
海がどうして、希望と絶望の両端にあるんだ
これが最後の手紙だ、あとでだしにいくよ
海にくばわれた僕たちの愛
でも、思うだけなら、許されるだろう
友子、僕の思いを受け取っておくれ
そうすれば
すこしは僕を許すことができるだろう
君は一生僕の心の中にいる
結婚して子供ができでも
人生の重要な分岐点にくるたび
君の姿が浮かび上がる
重い荷物をもって家出した君
行きかう人ごみの中に、ぽっつんと佇む君
お金をためて
やっと買った白いメディアス帽をかぶってきたのは
人ごみの中で、君の存在を知らしめるためだったのかい
見えたよ
僕には見えたよ
君は静かに立っていた
七月のはげしい太陽のように
それ以上直視するのはできなかった
君はそんなにも、静かに立っていた
冷静につとめたこころが一瞬に熱くなった
だけど、ぼくは心の痛みを隠し
心の声を飲み込んだ
僕は、知っている
思慕という低俗の言葉が
太陽の下の影のように
追えばにげ
逃げれば追われ
一生

君を忘れたふりをしよう
僕たちの思い出が渡り鳥ぼように
飛び去ったと思い込もう
君の冬が終わり、春が始まったと思い込もう
本当にそうだと思えるまで、必死に思い込もう
そして、
君が永遠に幸せである事を、祈っています

I felt very touched by the letters he sent her, its like ps i love you! :(
esp the last letter. 我知道，思念這庸俗的字眼將如陽光下的黑影, 我逃他追…我追他逃…
一輩子

feeling.... very vexed.
it sucks being someone who cant move on, but cant turn back clock either.

tho someone was being really evil, but still..... congrats on ur 2nd place for nac!
haha, i would really want to know whos binghong. o.o

feeling weird. ._.

2008-12-08T23:23:00.002+08:00

am supposed to sleep, but cant seem to.
quite accomplished today, finished my yuedubaogao. haha im happy with my reflections. :D
whee i spammed ruyan while i was doing it, i finally got abit sick of that song HAHAHA.

wow, what's with today.
msn's become so crowded.
:O

is anyone free tmr. -.-
i want to date you.
AHHHHHH :(
okay lah, i shall stay at home and watch dvd. ):

things are complicating, why?

后。青春期的诗 poetry of the day after

2008-12-07T22:10:00.000+08:00

不要害怕你不相信的东西。
something that i will bear in mind.

somehow, i still feel like running away.
i dunno where and how to muster that courage from.
i dont understand ~~guys~~ppl... seriously.
why?
maybe im the one that doesnt understand what the majority does.

hahaha, you wont know what im talking about, so dont bother asking.
i thought of locking this, but makes no sense since i blog with no sense and little ppl understand anyway, so i shall just leave this like this. RIGHT.

i feel balanced, and much better now.
:D

后。青春期的诗, recommended book :D
GO READDDDDDD.

ps. anybody got spare gao zhi to give/lend me?? T_T

海角七号

2008-12-05T22:58:00.002+08:00

国境之南 -

it's been long.
i love this calming song... i can feel myself facing the sea, somehow.
the relaxing effect it has, perfectly right. :)
i really want to watch this show AHHH T_T

2008-12-05T18:30:00.002+08:00

YESTERDAY

it was a rather fufilling day for me, finally a day out with my dear friends :D
HAHAHA ITS BEEN LIKE AGES SINCE WE MET UP. (like full attendance. normally it will be like SESE only HAHA tsk angela!)
caught wildchild, not that kind of bimbo show i thought of at first.
the male lead is hot, lol but the jap guy in little nonya is hotter! :D

WHO ARE WE!! biatches LMAO.
we went to this rather romantic(!?) place and camwhore for like one hr o.o
all we did was camwhore, but i had never laugh that much for so long! LOL@ SOMEONE WHO LOVE POSING SO MUCH TSK.
LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH HAHAHA. :D i know you all love me too awwww!
very sad to say, there will be no photos, unless someone sends me T_T due to the very GOOD phone i have with me now lahhhh.
seesa tee? :D :D :D :D :D

today, is co day again. -_-
nth much happened, haha just that evil jiayu was very zhong se qing you! >:(
LOL BUT THAT WAS BRAVE LAH. :)
anyway, thanks for the monkey gifts dad. :D
goodluck to the shengs jiayou jiayou you all can do it!

off to watch 海角七号!

nothing much to say, but i just feel like telling you this (i dunno why but now), wherever you are, whether you see this anot, whether you still dislike me.... n any case if you are thinking im trying to hold back anything, im not. 不属于我的，我不要。
i just believe in something called fate.
its difficult to find someone so alike and understands you.
我相信我们是有缘之人。
friends are good. enough.

yup thats all. haha im notttttttttttt emo-ing. -_-

朋友，要开心一点！you've got me and yr friends! :D
stage 0 of emo. :D

thanks for the memories. (:

BYEBYE KAOJI! :D

2008-12-03T18:20:00.003+08:00

FINALLY ITS OVER!
was quite screwed up lah, plus i was not feeling well -_- but i wasnt feeling very nervous -.-
zls said that the kao guan this time is stricter. ohnooooo, here goes my merit. :(
gosh, i hope i can pass.
SHALL RETURN PPL LUCK! :D
GOODLUCK EVERYONE!
now i can finally rest and dun touch my dizi for day YAY.

sent my phone for repair, and i got this weird/ugly-looking phone in return. LOL.
nvm, 5 days only, shall bear with it. its better than no phone right!!?

waiting for something that didnt happened in the end anyway.
haha im that kind of stupid girl. ._.

2008-12-02T18:22:00.003+08:00

omg the afternoon/evening rain finally ended.
raining days are good to take out my dizi( in replacement of piano -.- ) and play some emo songs... haha my 欢乐歌 sounded like 悲伤歌.
sigh, must be the rain.

last night didnt sleep again, and my eyes were like so small when i 'woke up' this morning, like this => ._.
i went to sy yawning, was really really tired! screwed up my kaoji songs, as usual.. AHHH EUNICE WHAT IS HAPPENING TO YOU!!?

i realised i didnt sleep for two days in a row alr. thats so scary.
nobody is there to spend the darkest nights with me boohoo, i feel lonely. ):
nah, jk. EMO-ING IS NOT GOOD. :D

my mum just told me to stop practising... cuz its very loud. ):
dead. how how how.
100% effort, 200% luck. givemeluckgivemeluckgivemeluckgivemeluckgivemeluckgivemeluckgivemeluckgivemeluckgivemeluck

SHALL BELIEVE IN HUIJING'S CMI. aka. CAN MAKE IT.
:D
:(
:S

haiz. goodluck to everybody taking kaoji!

2008-12-01T23:51:00.004+08:00

The man who can't be moved.
Stuck in my head now.
(i know im lag, this song came out quite long ago.. psst)

To whoever who is moody/emo, cheer up!
its hard, but i will change.

boys come and go, friends are forever. (edited -_-)
I will rmb that, thanks jiamin, fatty1! :D

人群中哭着,　我只想变成透明的颜色

2008-11-29T21:51:00.002+08:00

performance today. um its was quite okay lah, with all the seniors back and stuffs, how bad could it get lol.
Anyway, it's really great to see the yr4s back :D i really missed being a junior! lets cross our fingers and pray that huijing can book a chalet! :D then we can spend our time together again hahaha. LOL MIDNIGHT BIKING SOUNDS REALLY COOLLLLLLZ. happy yijing has finally found someone( huijing) to skate with her. they were like exclaiming to each other abt skating, me and linda totally O.O

on a heavier note, kaoji is down to 3 DAYS!!! OMG JIAYOU JIAYOU. kaoji huibao on mon's fenzu. that's kinda crazy too -_-

i want to be a transparent colour.
then, nobody will notice me.
nobody will notice if im sad, they wont bother.
then i will hide in a corner,
and i can cry all i want cuz nobody will be looking.
nobody will be talking,
nobody will be asking what happened.
nobody will be comforting.
nobody will ever be able to rake everything out of me again.
nobody will be able to step into my heart anymore.
nobody will hurt me once more.
then you will find me amongst the sea of dandelions and sunflowers,
i think i will be smiling.
i had failed suppressing my emotions today. ( I'm really sorry if i appeared very ap or dao :O) luckily, it did not exploded as much as i thought it will. i guess im getting better at faking. =)

/為什麼失去了　還要被懲罰呢
手心留下密密麻麻深深淺淺的刀割... 不肯完全的癒合.

"ppl move on alr, you still sit here cry got what use."

And if you think that I'm wrong, This never meant nothing to you

2008-11-28T22:44:00.002+08:00

poof, im not dead yet.

feeling disenchanted.

2008-11-24T22:29:00.002+08:00

LOL THIS IS CALL IMBA.
all the drummers are like gls standard. :O
hahaha homecoming song is so cute! even my bro knows how to hum to the song. -_-

i still cant believe i got pissed, with a non-living thing.
haiz, i must be really pms-ing.

2008-11-23T23:06:00.002+08:00

went to some buddhist funfair today, and i saw chengchong! :D hahaha. SILKBOY!
awwww, jieheng says that is called fate. HAHA

goodnight people!

你选择保持沉默，我不因该再等了，对吗？

2008-11-22T21:39:00.005+08:00

WOKE UP AND HAD SOME ENERGY!
hahaha i was telling huijing we should have GYAF wedding. coollllllz it will be like 8x2 people getting married at one go! :D

actually i can imagine alot ppl in wedding gowns and stuffs.
hahaha yijing can wear her ANGELIC dress! :D
lol, doesnt all wedding gowns look alike, those train-like kinds muahaha.

okay, some visuals. hahaha, im bored now.

SERIOUSLY. I HATE MY HAIR -.- its like so straight, ughhh make the alr-fat-face-i-have fatter :(

ps. piangz shilun wearing my dream guy's attire T_T

2008-11-22T17:34:00.002+08:00

back from ms tiong's wedding. HER WEDDING WAS SO COOLLL :D tho i didnt understand the bible part o.o
haha, they showed videos of how they got together and stuffs, and how he proposed! LOL BLACKMAIL. HAHAHA. omg, still got rehearsal one.

I WANT MY PROPOSAL TO BE ROMANTIC HAHAHAH, IF NOT I DUN AGREE. XD

attending/witnessing a wedding showed me how amazing two strangers can actually go through so many hurdles, treasuring, caring for each other. (:
marriage is such a happy thing.
makes me want to get married too. T_T

pictures on class blog, i guess. feeling sian to upload.

ANYWAY, MS TIONG/MRS LOW IS VERY PRETTY TODAY! (: no wonder they say people in love are more radiant. :D
haha, and that reminds me that mr low aka ms tiong's husband looks like ______! :O seriously.
i want to see eileen get married hahaa. jinjia too. :D

haha, had my very sticky gelare ice cream as lunch :D
it was not bad, and i like jiamin's one that has VERY NICE POTATO CHIPS. omg, its damn nice, i wanted to ask where they bought it... cuz its just super nice. :D

i guess im a very easily contented person.
food makes a sad eunice happy.
还是食物好！

that reminds me that i gonna have instant noodles for dinner today AGAIN. -_-
im a lazy pig who refuses to eat out alone/go out when is raining. 活该right.

& happy birthday yongjing! :D
hahaha, ps. i think i owe you two yrs present liao.
3 yrs friend, and more to come, right? :D
i cant wait for the union of doubleYJs. :D :D :D

i owe alot ppl presentszx how. ):

off to sleep, at this weird timing, goodnight :D

i should seriously stop pms-ing and pissing people off.
yesterday pms, today ap. whats wrong with me.

2008-11-21T23:10:00.002+08:00

finished my 1600+ words compo. (:
felt so much better.

Jie Heng says:
forget the past
Jie Heng says:
embrace the future
Jie Heng says:
appreciate today
Jie Heng says:
cos its a gift
Jie Heng says:
thats why its called the present

Haha, dun emo too much k_______(shant call you farmer)! and your lame jokes are COLD. your love beliefs are cool. (: jiayou!

tmr's ms tiong's wedding! hope i will be happy tmr. haha, HOPE.

You're just a sad song, with nothing to say.

2008-11-19T22:58:00.003+08:00

1. kaoji's coming. 3rd dec. i cant fail it.
2. someone just pryed open my wound. ouch.
3. i decided to emo, but not here.

im losing focus and confident. help :(

yourenothere;evenso,everything'sgonnabedifferent.
ifinallyunderstoodwhatyoumeantbythat.goodyourehappynow.
3words,itjsutcameouttoolate.

tmr will be a better day, with darl yj :)
flyaway~! airport here i come.

2008-11-18T16:54:00.003+08:00

HI. IM FREAKING BORED. AND HUNGRY. -.-

ANYONE WANTS TO GO LIB WITH ME TO DO HOMEWORK????
(i would love it if its at night tho 8D) night time easier to concentrate -.-

i hate it when im bored, i start to think alot.

i guess this is a meaningless post. but im bored. -.-

k, bye.

2008-11-17T22:28:00.000+08:00

had a retarded train ride home today with my two retarded juniors >:D
didnt know going home wif juniors can make me feel so dumb ._.
i swear clarissa is the most lian/bimbo/auntie/stupid(of course) junior i had ever met :D
& hitting her was fun hahahaha. tall people rocks!
& being stuck at that cabin was not much better -.-

fenzu was as usual. (check for improvement.)

on a heavier note,

DREAMS.
dreams are different from being commited to your work.
i guess im just being commited to my cca. (:
i wonder where my passion lies.
& i wonder if my talent will ever become a real talent. haha.
i really want to be someone special. i mean unique. ( haha, keep thinking._.)

the vast sky; the clear blue sea. i want to be part of it. its.. just so peaceful :)

正努力快乐。对于不确定的未来，没有你，会学着过得好，过得更好。

good night people. :D

2008-11-16T14:49:00.004+08:00

五月天 - 如烟
如烟 Ru Yan - 五月天 MayDay

歌曲岛放飞心情
我坐在床前
望着窗外回忆满天
生命是华丽错觉
时间是贼偷走一切
七岁的那一年
抓住那只蝉
以为能抓住夏天
十七岁的那年
吻过他的脸
就以为和他能永远
有没有那麽一种永远
永远不改变
拥抱过的美丽
都再也不破碎
让险峻岁月不能
在脸上撒野
让生离和死别都遥远
有谁能听见
我坐在床前
转过头看谁在沉睡
那一张苍老的脸
好像是我紧闭双眼
曾经是爱我的
和我深爱的
都围绕在我身边
带不走的那些
遗憾和眷恋
就化成最後一滴眼泪
有没有那麽一滴眼泪
能洗掉後悔
化成大雨降落在
回不去的街
再给我一次机会
将故事改写
还欠了他一生的
一句抱歉
有没有那麽一个世界
永远不天黑
星星太阳万物都
听我的指挥
月亮不忙着圆缺
春天不走远
树梢紧紧拥抱着树叶
有谁能听见
耳际眼前此生重演
是我来自漆黑
而又回归漆黑
人间瞬间天地之间
下次我又是谁
有没有那麽一朵玫瑰
永远不凋谢
永远骄傲和完美
永远不妥协
为何人生最後会像
一张纸屑
还不如一片花瓣
曾经鲜艳
有没有那麽一张书签
停止那一天
最单纯的笑脸和
最美那一年
书包里面装满了
蛋糕和汽水
双眼只有无猜和无邪
让我们无法无天
有没有那麽一首诗篇
找不到句点
青春永远定居在
我们的岁月
男孩和女孩都有
吉他和舞鞋
笑忘人间的苦痛
只有甜美
有没有那麽一个明天
重头活一遍
让我再次感受
曾挥霍的昨天
无论生存或生活
我都不浪费
不让故事这麽的後悔
有谁能听见
我不要告别
我坐在床前
看着指尖已经如烟

(wow long lyrics)

很快。。。一年如烟。
快乐的、难过的、感动的、执着过的。
说真的，我都不想忘记。
2009年还有很有事情忙着，收拾心情，继续走。
提醒自己：不要再有遗憾。
锁起来的回忆，就埋在内心深处吧，倘若再次想起，应该已没有再多眷恋。

阿信's lyrics is always so beautiful. =)
haha inspiring.
mayday's new album has beautiful and meaningful songs like the above, 如烟, 突然好想你, 你不是真正的快乐, 出头天.

=)

2008-11-15T21:50:00.004+08:00

WOOHOO. FINALLY, CONCERT'S OVER! :D
it was a successful one tho.. i think mu min xing ge was good, cant wait for next yr's gongyan! WE'RE GONNA ROCK! (:
hahaha, and we had fun 'raping' yihui, hahah the series of photos wif huijing, took 3eeeeeeeee photo too! hahaha. trying to take the same pose as we did during gongyan.
GONGYAN=> 8 months ago.

same place; different people, different expectations, different feelings.
& its all within a year.

vch brings back alot alot alot of fond memories; of my dear yr4 seniors (missed you guys sososo much!), you, my first performance in vch. i was walking up the way to the dizi room, everything just flashed back, lightning fast. how nice if we could turn back time... ):

lalala. alright, im not emo-ing k. shall end this post with a nice photo. :)

haha ezco's dizis! (:

ps. chengchong(richard-.-) 's hair is seriously damn silky!
pps. yiliang has the jiayu's look in the above photo! ohmy, jiayu are you seeing this. :D
ppps. i realised that dizis girls are rather lesbian-ic. :O

2008-11-14T22:12:00.003+08:00

last day of ezco camp. whoo finally, tmr's performance so everyone good luck! looks like other schs's ppl enjoyed eztc alot, haha except dhs -.-

i feel loved. (: but, i cant. not entitled to. yet.

hope you have happy and great night today..
i realised what that has mattered alot to me, may be nothing to you.
nearly one month, how had you been?

ps. theory exam :x :x

2008-11-13T21:50:00.002+08:00

i stared at the empty convo.
1hr.
2hr.

....
i somehow feel extremely sad whenever i see my friends being very happy.
i know its a stupid and an SUPER UNWANTED thought, but i cant help it.
whats wrong with me. :x
不是说得非常理直气壮吗？

带我走 by 杨丞琳。

2008-11-13T12:55:00.001+08:00

wtf muscle sprain? -.-
great, i got like two days mc.
PAIN ):

2008-11-11T21:09:00.003+08:00

试着用音乐的音符来表达故事背后的悲伤；陶醉在其中，暂时掩盖了过去的创伤。

current hit: 我還想她 by JJ LIN. :D

i want to go taiwan.
i want to go japan.
i want to go italy.
i want to go new zealand.
I WANT TO GO SOMEWHERE FAR.

GRADUATION HOLIDAY ANYONE? (:

2008-11-10T21:10:00.003+08:00

first day of ezco camp.
hmmmmm, overall still quite okay ba. but i didnt see any familiar faces :X of course, neither did i make any new friends haha. :O okay, i will make sure i AT LEAST rmb their names k. i rmb the girl sitting beside me, yi ching :) this time round got alot of sec 2s, so im again the old one hurhur. hope tmr will be better! =]

上海滩 is a cool song, its easy yet difficult. haha you get my point. -.- TTK'S BACK TO CONDUCT US, HAHA MISS HIM :D haha, i still rmb singing the song when i was young :O wrong era??

HAIYA, I MISS ALOT OF PPL ): you. you you and you. ): come back come back! :D

haha, changi airport makes me feel like going overseas.. leaving this place. maybe a holiday trip will make a break from the constant haunts. someone bring me away~
ps.my bro amuses me. ALOT. hehe, tho he's irritating at times, but cant deny, he's cute too :)

you came back today. o.o the look you had on yr face when you saw me... how am i supposed to comprehend it? a sense of sadness/disappointment overwhelmed me.

2008-11-08T21:09:00.004+08:00

HOO! today is a fastttt day. 很久没有这样忙了. =.=
LOL, but i kinda like today, it passes fast, at least i didnt have that much time to think :x

anw, met up wif sherlyn at sy today, then went to eat. HAHA there's this thing bad about going out wif ur attached friends, their souls seemed to be sold to the other party :O and IRRITATING LEH, SMS STILL SMILE UNTIL LIDDAT AHEMZ! hahaha yr fren emo, should care more right tsk! -.- 要为朋友着想嘛．then she wanted to force emo-ness out of me, but apparently, today i do not have the emo-mood... hmm, but she's right, maybe the duration DOES matters. so much for thinking, it never really come out from my mouth. hmph.
aiya, "dont emo!", "cheer up!" how much it helps? i appreciate tho :D thanks friends :)

theory lesson was so-so, lesser ppl came today + i went early! learnt frm last wk's lesson T-T
im so gonna die for listening lahhhhh. cant get the paizi thingy, someone help me! (PS: i think there's um, smth wrong wif yongjing, he draws many treble clef on almost all the pages that he did exercises on.. i mean, is that really so fun!? :O )

edit: hmm hotshot is a nice show(with show acting dumb -_-), haha i like this guy that looks like edison chen :D, and JERRY YAN IS COOL (: HEHE. future bf material hahaha.

&&dear poot, get well soon!! nah its not yr fault, its jianming's -.-

screwed. (brb)

2008-11-06T18:43:00.000+08:00

haiyo, i wanted to open my blog, yet i cant change skin zzzz.
GEN, MY MONKEY SKIN! >:(
(dunno if you will see this-.-)

so, shall use this default template first hmph.

2008-11-06T01:05:00.000+08:00

爱情飞走了，
却没带走悲伤。
只残留着一些破粹的回忆。
回忆要如何拼凑才能重来？

wait, 重来=重新开始？

我想也是，是时候start afresh 了。
连屋子也开始 start afresh；NEW WARDROBE，NEW CUPBOARD，NEW COMP。
把旧的统统扔掉，逼我接受这个所谓的改变，仿佛要我把过去的一切都抹掉一样。
haha, as if it's ever possible.

haiyo, im blogging in this halfeng/halfchi mode. which is so -.-，sorry if you dun seem to get what i trying to say. 有点爸爸的风格，有没有。

说到爸爸，现在应该在台湾了。哈哈，真好，能出国！T-T
爸爸的 email 好 emo, 但说到了重点：永不放弃，坚信自己的努力！

反省一下，过去几个月，太 emo 了。太不是原本的自己了。每晚都会不知觉地掉泪，很尴尬，有时会被妈发现，又不知道如何解释，就随便推个借口。就连妈都说我房间该有个 crying corner, 让我哭个够。 -.- 好白痴的做法喔！

Anyway，现在唯一的目标就是 dont flop for 考级。PRAC MORE PRAC MORE!!

edit: haha, you can stop here -.-

有人问，会痛吗？
会，真的比我想象中的还痛。caus' it went off as fast as it started. 从来没有想过它竟然能够主宰我的人生，爱情这东西，真微妙。但硬撑住，紧握住这条线，死都不放，风筝飞不高，也不快乐。放你走，希望你能真正地快乐，也希望自己有重来的机会。read some blogs, i realised you had become happier, thats good :) maybe thats the life you had always wanted; the kind of life that im not able to give you. 有时会想，可能是我不够好，不够温柔、不够体贴、不够聪明，整天说错话，惹你讨厌。。。可能我莫名的极度缺乏安全感，让你倦了。可能我们]在彼此寻找的东西，一直都不一样。我不配，不配。哈哈，可笑的我，心底还是有点在期待什么，死心死心！其实，看到你开心，我很矛盾。我恨你，为什么能这么潇洒地说放就放，为什么我还得逼自己放下。我恨自己为什么要这么在乎这一切，you once said im your emotional support, 你何尝不是？傻瓜我们都一样。。。我希望你快乐，渴望是那个能让你快乐的人，但我做不到了。LOL I SOUND LIKE IM ACTING AS IF IM DAMN 伟大。-_- 或许吧，别人的不谅解，对我来说没什么，反正也早已被狠狠地打败了。 JAY 的说好的幸福呢很适合，我的um.. 能说是主题吗？

从头到尾，都是由心左右我的决定，至少休止符是理智的，算合理了吧？
i dont love you, like i did yesterday.

poof, long post! 2:36 now. SLEEPPPPPP!